It’s 90° & I’m on meds that make me sweat

So if I’m rude, blame the weather (and maybe the meds). And no, I will not be going outside.

How am I supposed to live, laugh, love if Lexapro and Orilissa cause excessive sweating and I potentially have POTS? Climate change is real and makes the heat feels ten times worse. I feel like a pregnant woman with swollen feet, hobbling around in discomfort. I am in hell. It is basically summer. Summer is my hell.

You might think, oh she’s just being over dramatic. No, I’m not.

I step outside and — BAM! Sweat. I walk out of my room? Sweat. I drink a lot of water and stay cool? Somehow I’m still sweating???? It feels so embarrassing. If you’re like me, I’m not judging. I support you and your sweatiness — we simply cannot handle it.

Every night now, it’s cold sweats and chills. Ridiculous. Unfair. Humiliating. I shouldn’t be 23 years old and having cold sweats in the middle of the year.

Lexapro saved my life — and duh, I love her. I’m no longer crying over literally everything. But my god, her one toxic trait? Excessive. Sweating.

Orilissa? Life-saver. I have endometriosis, and she’s helped my pain and the bloating. But she has made my night sweats worse. I might have to break up with her soon. I can’t be this sweaty in June.

Don’t get me wrong, I love being hot. That’s been part of the healing too — telling myself I’m hot until I actually believe it.

But being hot? Sweating? Itchy skin from ANY form of heat? Feeling like you don’t have enough air? Brain fog? Near-fainting?

I’d rather freeze to death in the middle of December.

Y’all signed up for this newsletter, so you’re getting TMI:

Last night, I woke up three times. Drenched in sweat. Sheets soaked.

I wanted to die. I felt disgusting and I was shivering.

What did I do? Grab another blanket, and hug my dog to stay warm.

This morning, I rage-scrolled Amazon and found a million “solutions” for night sweats. I ordered a bunch of them. I can’t do this all summer.

But what about the daytime? What about when I want to leave the house? I want to go on a freaking hike. How am I supposed to do that??? Literally the only time I can go out in the summer is mid-afternoon or at night.

For god’s sake, I almost passed out at Disney World. Twice.

How does one stay cool in weather that will continue to warm each year?

How does one stay cool if, according to AP News, the Environmental Protection Agency proposed revoking rules that limit greenhouse gas emissions? From power plants?

I don’t care that the EPA’s administrator Lee Zeldin said it would help “unleash” American energy or “save us money.” It’s literally killing our ozone layer — and honestly? Hurting people, animals, everyone on the one planet we all call home.

Is saving money really more important than the warming of our planet?

So yeah. If I seem unhinged lately, it’s not (just) my personality — it’s the heat, the meds, the late-stage capitalism, the endometriosis, the EPA, and the fact that I cannot wear cute outfits without risking heat stroke.

I’m doing my best to cope, but the heat is testing me. If you also feel like you’re melting from the inside out, I see you.

And if you love summer… I’m happy for you. But please do not invite me anywhere until October.

Until then —
stay spooky, stay sweaty, stay inside,

Kaylirose 🎃💜✨